Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Just when you thought I couldn't get any more odd...

I throw something else in the mix. Ha! For quite some time, I've been standing on my "live simply" soap box. I've never been one to collect nic naks or like a lot of decorations.  I've been known to say I don't like "stuff".
I am constantly going through drawers, closets, and cabinets and getting rid of things.
As I was explaining to my poor husband the other day  why I was getting rid of the couches(don't worry that's the one thingnwe are saving for is a new  couch) and why I wanted to downsize the tv stand, it dawned on me.
Stuff stresses me out.
For real. I'm happy in a house with very little decoration, no nic nacs, and the bare essentials. The internet tells me I must be practicing something called "spartanism".
One thing is for sure. You don't have to worry about me having a shopping problem or becoming a hoarder. I'm the opposite! I love free space and no clutter. I've gotten rid of a
Lot  just since Tedd left. We'll see how he reacts when he gets home!  I didn't touch his stuff but I wouldn't mind if he did it for me!

Friday, August 9, 2013

Forgiveness

Most of us have heard or read the story in Matthew 21, when Peter asked Jesus:

 “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?”
Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times."

But, lets just face it. As sinners, we're just not always very good at it. Satan weasles his grubby little self into our hearts and thoughts. We find it hard to forgive,  and we want revenge. We want to see the other person suffer for what we perceived as them "wronging us"
I'm here to tell you that forgiveness is hard. I've fought it tooth and nail many times.
We hear lies from the world around us about "sweet revenge"

When I was in high school one of my very dear friends went through a very rough time. Her father, who by all definition of the word was a "model christian" had an affair and left her family.  Her mother fought for their marriage for quite some time despite the circumstances.
They eventually divorced. On THE day that he remarried, her mother woke up to an email from his mistress. It was nasty and from my understanding basically said that she had "won" and stole her husband.
I will never forget what my friend said next. Her mother sent a reply to this email. This is what it said,

"I forgive you."

I have chills every time I think about this story. As a married woman, my heart breaks and my spirit weeps for my friends mother. I can't imagine going through what she did. But what an AMAZING testimony to her love for Christ.

I recently messaged my friend and told her that 10 years later, her moms story helped me  to forgive someone for something that was long overdue.  She sent a message back saying she didn't even actually remember when she told me the story, but it made her very emotional to know that God was still working through that terrible time in her life.

Forgive. Give it to God. Dont seek revenge. Its not our place.
Romans 12 says,
"Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord."

I trust the God I serve to take care of it.

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Patiently waiting

Ok. Well maybe not so patiently.  Tedds "supposed" to be home in the beggining of September.  We still haven't gotten a date. Not even a tentative one. A lot of my friends are crazy excited.  Theyre counting down, decorating, and preparing their houses. Me? I can't let myself get excited yet. I know myself.  If I do, and they don't come home on time...Ill be disappointed.
Tedd and I have been discussing it though. Its a funny thing when your spouse has been away for over 8 months. Think back on your own life. I think its safe to say a lot has changed in that amount of time. Besides a few pictures, we have only been able to get skype to work twice. We've literally seen each others faces twice in 8 months. Dont take that stuff for granted friends.
Its a little scary.  We are both very different people than we were when he left. Things in our house have changed.  Since December 4th our house was re-roofed, we got new siding put on, we have 2 different (free) couches, I've rearranged every room in the house and got rid of even more junk.
Calvin has a whole new set of needs,  I have some brand spankin new wrinkles. I've got some new friends Tedd has never met. We have ALL new neighbors; when I mention them Tedd doesn't know who they are.  Weve each got our own routines.
Tedds different too. Hes already told me hes sure he'll be a little "jumpy" when he hears loud noises etc.
 Weve essentially lived 2 separate lives.
I'm really not worried about putting our lives back together.  I just want him home. But it should be interesting and probably slightly comical when he comes home and we try to get to know each other again.  Ill post updates when the time gets closer or when we are in the home stretch. One day at a time.