Sunday, April 8, 2012

Stress Level=High!

Tuesday I had orientation for my new job, and I started Wednesday. I really like it! I feel like it is going to give me a lot of useful skills in my career. Whatever that may be. LOL.

I really thought I had things figured out. Now I don't even know what I really want to do or be when I "grow up". Its okay though. I feel like this is where I am supposed to be right now and thats all that matters. Or at least that's what I keep telling myself. If that is not the case, don't tell me otherwise because I am believing myself as of now. :)

We are still taking our foster care classes. We're half way done! I finally bit the bullet and moved Trixie out into the mudroom so we could set up the kids room. I don't think she minds being out there. It has been a bit of a challenge to set up home visits because Tedd and I are working different schedules right now. I am a little confused at how any family that has to work for a living can have both the "mom and dad" home between 8 am and 5pm. Whatever. We'll make it work. I bought a few more books and games at thrift stores this week. Its exciting to think it may not be much longer before we have a placement.

Then there comes the stressful part. My dear friend Taya is getting married to my cousin in 5 weeks. I am soooo excited for them. They have been engaged forever and have waited for this for over a year and a half! But can I just say that being a bridesmaid is THE most stressful responsibility ever! Well at least being a good bridesmaid is. And its expensive! Besides paying for at LEAST 1/3 of the shower, you have the dress, the shoes, the hair, the tanning, the nails, the shower gift, the wedding gift, the travel, the hotel room, etc etc. lol. You do it because you love them :) But my goodness I am gettin too old for this! haha.

To make matters worse, I picked up my dress from the bridal shop last weekend in Indiana. THEY (the bridal shop) ordered the WRONG size. It was completly and 100% their fault. And they won't do anything about it since its "so close" to the wedding. When did customer service die? So I now have to figure of of that out. STRESSFUL!

I worked last night from 2:30pm-11pm. I got in my car to leave. My car wouldn't start. For real? Is this really happening?

This morning I got up and took the dog outside to potty. He wouldn't take a treat (which is CRAZY for him) and started trying to vomit. If you have any idea how much money we've spent trying to get him well after having pneumonia and many other would understand me wanting to throw myself into the grass next to him and scream.

And last but not least. Do you ever have times when you feel like absolutley no one "gets" you? I just want to not have to explain myself. I am tired of explaining why I switched jobs, why I am stressed out, and why I feel the ways I do. People are so selfish and manipulating. I'm tired of being made to feel bad because I am not doing what makes someone else happy. I think I need to go spend some time in prayer huh? lol. I know. I need to get over it.
Sorry for the negativity :)

Wednesday, April 4, 2012


We left for Indiana at 4 am Friday morning. When I was packing the car in the morning it was probably 80 degrees. I was wearing shorts, and no shoes. We had a good weekend but it was a little too full and hectic for my liking.

Calvin went with us and he was AMAZING! Praise the Lord, he's a good little traveler. He took naps in his crate, played on my lap and looked out the window.

Friday evening when we arrived at my sister's house (where we stayed) we were there for about an hour and then took off for another hour to Tedd's parents. We had a really good time there and got to see his whole immediate family and a few of his aunts as well. We got home late that night and got a small amount of sleep.

Saturday morning I rode with my sister, niece and mom to Fort Wayne. We had about 10 different stops we had to make. I had to pick up my bridesmaids dress, and the bridal shower cake among many other things. By the time we got home we had about an hour to get everything around for my moms birthday party.

We had a good time with everyone from my family that night. It was another late night. Sunday morning I had to make a trip to Wal-mart before 8 am. Then got ready for church and put everything we needed for the bridal shower in the car. Then there was church, and the bridal shower, and the clean up.

I came straight home and loaded the car to go home. Then we drove 9 hrs home.

Are you exhausted yet? I was. It was very nice to see family, but it wasn't much of a "vacation". We had fun none the less. It was nice catching up with family and seeing how much our nieces and nephews had grown. Calvin was great and was in love with all of the kids and my dad's dog "missy". Taya had a really nice shower and I was able to get my dress and shoes for the wedding instead of having them shipped. But we were very excited to be home :)